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Ok so bear in mind I have been drinking.. but yah... an update to date..

SG and I are AWESOME things are so good I dunno what else tp say.. my work has even improved, but that means something has to go wrong.. right? Right.. so I get told tonight P has no interest in rekindling things with me. Great.. so I start to occupy myself with a few drinks to just get me into the right mood..yah was good at the start but its only as good as the others allow right? I honesty tried just being a friend and goofing off and just having fun, not over analyzing things at all. Well didn't matter what I did or how minor or major. I got glares, pissed off looks and just general wierdness from P. It got to the point we both left the party in separate directions, I to cool off, I assume her to cry. Her best friend. M, went with her so they came back later. I was frankly just done with everything so I went inside and chatted with M who thought I really needed to go get some sleep. See M feels lesser then P and P feels the lesser of M.. its messed kinda.. so being me I bragged her up so that she knows at least one person things she's really great and such. P didn't like that. She came in and "warned" me not to do something spiteful. Needless to say I unloaded like a drunken sailor on a fresh voyage, had a friend holding my arm telling me to relax and don't worry about she was saying, but I wouldn't have it. The shere gall of her thinking that my attempts to make someone feel good about themselves as a spiteful act to her? I unloaded everything. She left, went and cried whatever. Am I an asshole? prolly. Do I care? not really. Shit hit the fan but at least the bad smell is gone. Am I sad at this turn of events? Not sure yet, little hurt but I knew it was coming so that was good. Now I'm just going to push onwards.

P.s Unloading did NOT involve me swearing, name calling or anything negetive. I just told her "exactly" how I felt and why I was doing it and why her assuming I was being spiteful was very wrong pov.