The Sharpest of Blades
I know I said I would post more about my trip to Toronto/Guelph area, however I am sure those of you still around who read my blog.. or wait for me to post something once a year.. probably read Shasta's blog and therefore, know all. So I won't repeat whats been said. Instead I'll start fresh from here on out. Now hers a warning.. I don't plan out my blogs. I just start with a letter, then a word and keep typing until I can't think of much more to write about so you've been warned lol.
I don't even know if I will continue blogging.. I know I said that before but I am still questioning it. I was going to get into it again since Shasta and I were getting more comfortable around each other and things were looking pretty damn good. However as fate would have it.. and a time tested and true fact about my life. If its too good to be true. It probably is, and so it was made plainly evident lately. Shasta did not go into the whole reasoning of why things turned sour and so I won't either. I am not about to get involved in an online drama war. Drama period is something I tend to avoid if possible, even if some people claim I am the root of it all. Its simple. I don't cause the drama. I am just myself and peoples have to learn how to get me. If they don't their loss, also heres a piece of advice. When you look for something wrong with the single mindedness to find something wrong, it is a guarantee you'll find something wrong.
So here I am, single, which is fine by me. Desperate apparently according to some. Which I just have to laugh about. I get offers and some very attractive women approaching me whom I could very much find something interesting in, however I keep my interest on one, regardless of what happens or what I end up doing. I guess you could call me desperate, flying (something I have never done commercially.) 3000 kilometers just to see someone who I never stopped loving. Yah I am super desperate it seems. Hard headed? Hardly hard. Maybe in being myself around whoever and not being shy anymore. Like really, how many people are exactly online as they are in person? True there are similarities but being online is so much easier to talk to people. With that its easier for things to be construed.
*EDIT* Now don't take this the wrong way. I'm not passing the buck, I know what I do and sometimes its over the top and at times I don't catch it all. Its part of who I am. I don't always think about everything and at times that can lead to BS like this. However if I feel comfortable enough to state things then there is a reason. This is how things get mis-construed. However there is only so much one can say really. I guess all could have been avoided really, in an ideal world. No ones hurt (well besides the obvious it seems) no ones dead and no ones life is fucked up. Guess thats the bright side..
ANYWAYS.. I should just stop there afor I do start what I don't want to. So onto deciding to blog about. I am thinking of doing more of my writings yay! My weekly activities or whatever I end up doing and feel like posting about. So for now I will be posting more! Hopefully! maybe I'll post my pictures of the trip to Niagra Falls. Now that was awesome to see.
Daily events? I might be going to a fetish show tmw night. Depends if I feel up to it and if I have company to go with or not. I might just use the weekend for sleep. Work has been tiring, the crew I am on is top performing in the company making the most progress and keeping on time despite the small amount of men we have at the site. Which means I am a busy man lol. So when friday rolls around I am eager to go home and sleep, not this friday however. Work is simple, do your job, don't get killed, don't kill anyone else and get your paycheck. Life.. however is much more complicated. So at times I find that work is a good repeave from life in general. Keeps my mind occupied so I don't think of the BS that is life. Plus the work I do allows me to get in pretty good physical shape and a paycheck is always nice. Now that work is over, time to relax and see what I can do now with the rest of my life outside of work, specifically this weekend. Speaking of work being over I require a shower... Also I just heard a song that goes along well with this post. Cya for now!
I don't even know if I will continue blogging.. I know I said that before but I am still questioning it. I was going to get into it again since Shasta and I were getting more comfortable around each other and things were looking pretty damn good. However as fate would have it.. and a time tested and true fact about my life. If its too good to be true. It probably is, and so it was made plainly evident lately. Shasta did not go into the whole reasoning of why things turned sour and so I won't either. I am not about to get involved in an online drama war. Drama period is something I tend to avoid if possible, even if some people claim I am the root of it all. Its simple. I don't cause the drama. I am just myself and peoples have to learn how to get me. If they don't their loss, also heres a piece of advice. When you look for something wrong with the single mindedness to find something wrong, it is a guarantee you'll find something wrong.
So here I am, single, which is fine by me. Desperate apparently according to some. Which I just have to laugh about. I get offers and some very attractive women approaching me whom I could very much find something interesting in, however I keep my interest on one, regardless of what happens or what I end up doing. I guess you could call me desperate, flying (something I have never done commercially.) 3000 kilometers just to see someone who I never stopped loving. Yah I am super desperate it seems. Hard headed? Hardly hard. Maybe in being myself around whoever and not being shy anymore. Like really, how many people are exactly online as they are in person? True there are similarities but being online is so much easier to talk to people. With that its easier for things to be construed.
*EDIT* Now don't take this the wrong way. I'm not passing the buck, I know what I do and sometimes its over the top and at times I don't catch it all. Its part of who I am. I don't always think about everything and at times that can lead to BS like this. However if I feel comfortable enough to state things then there is a reason. This is how things get mis-construed. However there is only so much one can say really. I guess all could have been avoided really, in an ideal world. No ones hurt (well besides the obvious it seems) no ones dead and no ones life is fucked up. Guess thats the bright side..
ANYWAYS.. I should just stop there afor I do start what I don't want to. So onto deciding to blog about. I am thinking of doing more of my writings yay! My weekly activities or whatever I end up doing and feel like posting about. So for now I will be posting more! Hopefully! maybe I'll post my pictures of the trip to Niagra Falls. Now that was awesome to see.
Daily events? I might be going to a fetish show tmw night. Depends if I feel up to it and if I have company to go with or not. I might just use the weekend for sleep. Work has been tiring, the crew I am on is top performing in the company making the most progress and keeping on time despite the small amount of men we have at the site. Which means I am a busy man lol. So when friday rolls around I am eager to go home and sleep, not this friday however. Work is simple, do your job, don't get killed, don't kill anyone else and get your paycheck. Life.. however is much more complicated. So at times I find that work is a good repeave from life in general. Keeps my mind occupied so I don't think of the BS that is life. Plus the work I do allows me to get in pretty good physical shape and a paycheck is always nice. Now that work is over, time to relax and see what I can do now with the rest of my life outside of work, specifically this weekend. Speaking of work being over I require a shower... Also I just heard a song that goes along well with this post. Cya for now!
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