In with the New.

So far.. new work (for the msot part..) New glasses, new look, new friends, new found interest.. new family! We'll see all this new stuff goes!

So celebrating my b-day tmw! All excited! and hella nervous.. There might be a few showing up that I really "really" want to see.. lol

And the family tree grows by one more..

So I just got home from work to get the news.. I am now an uncle! again! Wooohooo

Another odd Monday

Well to start today off I was so tired the previous night that I did not set my alarm clock properly.. which lead to me sleeping in much to my disappointment. I despise and regret missing work for the most part, but as with some people, its not a huge loss to miss a day. So I stayed at home mostly. Everyone else I know being at work and what not. I had an eye appointment to go to so it wasn't going to be another unproductive day. Now the previous saturday I had gone in to see if I could get replacement frames at least for my glasses. Due to how long it had been since my last eye exam the woman strongly urged me to go get an examination. So I booked one for Monday and that was the extent of that. Now I had been wearing my broken but mostly "patched" glasses and she remarked on my "ingenuity" of how I had them, cotton balls and tape really lol. She was a nice woman and fairly attractive. Albiet not my "type" (if I ever had one) but a nice woman none the less. I couldn't help but think about her over the weekend and a slight eagerness to see her again on monday. It was odd really since I don't usually get all giddy over any random woman I buy things from lol. So given this I decided that after my eye exam I would ask her out. Not a date, just hanging out.

So now its monday, I'm finished with my exam and everything is fine. Only one step stronger so basically near non-existant change. Go me! and that is after 4 years since my last eye exam. So now to pick out frames. At first I did not think she was working but there she was as I walked in and she came up and smiled and asked me how my exam was. Its so nice to be remembered. So we chatted a bit and looked at a few. On said frames looking really good on me. At times I almost thought she was flirting with me.. as she was asking me what I do outside of work, if I go clubbing, to the part etc etc. I wasn't sure as then she went into how certain sunglasses worked and glasses tint and what not. She really did know her glasses! lol She kept moving her hands so I couldn't really sneak a peek to look at her hands to see if she was married, to avoid a perhaps awkward moment of course. Well she went to take care of another customer and I kept going through the glasses, which she kept bringing me at intervals to keep me guessing on what I want. I decided on this nice set of slender black framed glasses, they seemed maybe a little narrow but by far the best I found. She liked what she saw as well it seemed. So we sat down and started going through my information and we talked about the area, where she lives and such and I discovered she has a boyfriend, which was good as well lol. At one point I asked her what she does outside of work. She informed me her bf (this was when I discovered she had one) and her just got a new house and they were unpacking and what not. So we chatted a bit more as she put in information. She commented she doesn't get to go to the gym nearly enough, to which I replied she looked very nice to me. Now heres where I stopped and went.. Oh you IDIOT lol.. as it was just kinda offhandedly dropped. She paused what she was doing and looked at me with a smile and asked.. "What was that?" Caught in the moment I stated what I said once more and she smiled a bit broader and continued her work after saying thank you. Now that was enough of me putting my foot in my mouth for the day and I paid for my order and out I went with her saying she looked forward to seeing me again lol. She also almost had me buying sunglasses which I should have done, but maybe another time. I do however looked dammmn good in the sunglasses she had picked out for me so who knows.

On a different topic.. my b-day party is coming up and you all are invited! Except.. you.. you.. you.. you.. all of you.. you.. and especially you. Oh you can come and you.. and you.. you all can come lol. I wish life were like that really, but I am sure with how things are, I have more enemies then allies on here. It seems some people just can't let things lie. Oh well. I am however looking forward to seeing a bunch of people there that I haven't seen in some time. Good honest, open and accepting people. One or two being a submissive I may play with in the future somewhere down the line. Speaking of play I've been thinking more and more of contacting that Dom that beat me a bit at the Kink Show to ask him if he would Mentor me. I still have to decide just how far down that rabbit hole I will go. At least this way I will learn enough so people don't "roll" they're eyes at me and actually take me seriously when I make the effort. So I will keep you updated on that as well.

On yet another topic.. my six months of chastity.. a few of my friends and aquaintances have their doubts as to my success in such an endeavor. To be honest I do as well. After all I've had some issues with getting in over my head and impulse control doing things spur of the moment I earlier was resounded not to do. But albeit a little disheartened a these thoughts I am even moreso resolved to do it. This will give me time to heal, to move on and forget (maybe), and to rebuild myself into who I truly want to be. Its already started actually. New glasses, a new resolution to work harder at work. Start eating healthier and exercising. I've already set up some rollerblading plans with my roomate and his fiancee (still considering a Name for them..) Ansgar for my roomate, and for his fiancee I am thinking.. Brenna? Sound good? So once it gets nicer out and I pick up some new blades and helmet (one brain cell left, but she's a fighter!) off I go! Its time to bloody well become the man I am supposed to be.

Oddness

Well lately I have been sleeping horribly.. mostly due to bad dreams, ones that are super wierd or odd.. last night however was different. Still odd, but not a horrible one.. lol

I was at work doing Masonry, stocking cinder blocks on scaffold and what not.. and the wierd part was that the Bricky was a woman. Now don't get me wrong I'm not some guy who thinks women are beneath, in fact I consider them equals or even a little greater then man (after all they give us children, life, the reason for art and poetry.. etc etc) But Masonry is a "very" difficult trade and I have to see or even hear of a woman in this trade. Its not a very appealing job.. its incredibly dirty, and hard work. Not that I would mind a female Bricky, I might just work harder if that was the case ;) In my dream she just seemed very familiar but I can't place a name or face. I hate that -.-

Oh wellz was a good dream and thats what matters.

Dammit all..

Plans canceled on due to me breaking my glasses and needing a replacement.. god dammit.. and it wasn't even reason to break.. just old and corroded I guess...

An Odd Envelope., Do I dare open?

I dared, after all it was from this restaurant I had been to a few times. But not for some time. So I open it.. and there is a gift certificate for a free appertizer.. because its my B-day coming up. I am unsure how they found out where I lived.. but it pales in comparison to know when my birthday was... we did go there for my roomates B-day but I don't recall ever letting them know of mine.. Soooo wierd...

Pineapples and Ponderings

Work was excellent today actually. I did as I wanted, left to mostly my own devices which I love. Why? I get more done when I'm not being hounded. I have a set determination on completeing the tasks I give myself. I think I work harder that way as I am busting my ass for myself, because I am kind of a perfectionist and I know what needs to be done. So relaxing on the way home this song comes on the radio and I think its just fantastic.. Doc Walker "Forgive me (for giving a damn). It kind of goes on about my life for the most part. Not exactly but it made me feel good actually. Without further ado.. Doc walker :D

Leather, PVC and whips Galore!

Well I was nervous and unsure of what to expect but was excited nonetheless as to how my night was to end up going along. WELL! Since it is fresh in the mind I will divulge. Transit was shut down downtown basically which made it horrid to get there. On the plus side I got to see a friend of mine and Shasta's. T I believe she called him? Not quite sure. All the same I got to talk to him and catch up, we have always got along for the most part, never really know much about each other but we hang out when we happen upon each other. So there I had someone to go with to the kink night! Yay!

I arrive, unsure and hoping I was dressed properly. Even tho it seemed the dress code wasn't overly aggressive as I saw people with jeans, swim trunks and whatever else. Just take off your shirt and you got in it seemed. But that was hardly my concern. I went in and took a look around. I had been to this club once before so it was the same, however I got to walk around more and looked at all the lovely eye candy that was present. There were a few people I knew and in fact one of the waitress's there, I had worked with previously at my fav bar. I was a bit shy about being caught there, but she assured me she figured I was the kinky type so it was no real surprise lol. Whew! So there were women dancing on the stage and random events happening. Dom's were prepping they're play area's and the likes. I had a drink and went to visit with my friend Lady Seraphina. A most marvelous and inspiring woman. We talked a bit about my recent adventure in Toronto in which I had the pleasure of using one of Shasta's little slappers on her and grew quickly pleased with the effect the small thing had. It was great fun and so I intend to look into getting one of my own. Lady Seraphina offered that one day I visit and go through her mound of toy catalogues that I can order from and see what I might want. The possibilities are DEFINATELY interesting! So we shall see how that progresses!

Well Lady S and her entourage departed to go play in a different area and so I remained to watch anything else that might occur. Well I didn't recognize right away but up comes Sir Stripe, one of the most respected Dom's in calgary and two of his subs. They sat beside me and unsure I remained silent, however I nodded to him and one of his subs smiled to me, and I returned her smile. Shortly after they got comfortable he had one of his subs bent over the table. I sat back and did my best to stay out of the way as he selected this rather large, thick, wooden paddle and began to paddle her ass in long intervals, massaging her rear after each stroke. I watched his hand movements for the flick of his wrist and absorbed as much as I could on how the proffessionals treat they're play partners. After he was finished with that one, he took a belt to the second one as she too was bent over the table. This time he stuck her back as well. It was very very interesting and I wasn't put off like I used to be when I first started watching such play. In fact watching him lead his two subs on chains and collars made me desire to lead a submissive of my own around and to paddle her ass to boot!

I grew thirsty and off I went to get another drink, hob knobbed with a few others and to my initial surprise to see Nia's ex from Calgary, Remi being led along by a chain behind a very attractive red head, whom's name I won't divulge here, but I must say I envied him a little, just a little ;) Not having the inclining to be a bottom or submissive I am more limited as to selection of play partners :( Oh well tho! I later on went to talk to him a bit and see how he was. As we talked his "Top" for the night came back and he introduced me. I unfortunately got him in a spot of trouble talking to him it seemed, whoops! lol Oh well I am sure it was patched over very easily. So off I went again! To see what trouble I could get into, and trouble I found. It was T and another well known male Dom. I am unsure as to if said Dom would want his name spread so to be on the safe side I'll refrain from using it. Well I conversed with them about some people in the Scene believing that a GOOD Dom is one who experiences the abuse that He/She inflicts on another at LEAST once. They agreed and I was told to "Take the wall" Unsure I hesitated and thought, well, I came here to experience it, why not go for it all the way. So off went my leather shirt and over to the wall I went. Leaning against it I was unsure of how it would feel or what the HELL I had gotten myself into but I was determined to see it through. staring at the floor as the Dom came up and explain the safe words. Red for STOP!, Yellow for Slow down or no harder, and Green for go ahead knock yourself out. With everything clear I relaxed as best I could and it wasn't long before I felt the light snaps of the flogger on my back. It wasn't painful like I feared, as I am sure he started rather light, and at times it was a harder strike. Nothing unbearable in the least. He paused to rub my back where he struck and asked if I wished to continue. I said Yellow. So he proceeded at the same pace for a bit more and my back tingled and didn't smart so much anymore. So when he approached me the second time I said green, so off he went again gradually harder on my back with the odd strike to the ass. I didn't say red at all! I was proud of myself really and I think he was too as he offered a FULL session later on rather then just 5 minutes.. 5 full minutes, it felt like 2 lol. I told him I would think on it and went off to talk to Lady S about it. She was quite happy I dabbled and politely informed me that more the likely the Full session would cost me.. I figured money.. and then she input the fact he gave as much as took.. so the price would not have been money.. and well.. I passed on that lol. Not for me nope nope. :) It became rather evident later on when he would poke my chest of crotch with a switch. Flattered of course but not my cup of tea. I am far too much into women. However the women were not biting as I had hoped..

HOWEVER! I did get to speak a bit in length with one of the bartenders, she was very curious about the Scene and so being new also, we had a good conversation topic. I was hoping to introduce her to Lady S as she wasn't 100% sure if she was a top or bottom, I concluded however from our conversation that she was more of a switch then just one way. I discovered she was married, explained to her a bit about Polyamory and my experience briefly. Leave it to me to find a woman who is attracted to me, and I her, and she is already taken. She intends to talk to her man about the Scene and maybe even Polyamory. So if there is another kink night I do hope I get to see her again to see how she is progressing into the scene if she actually will.

I did not get to see the woman I had hoped to see which is unfortunate. However I did see a beautiful, red haired woman that I had met at the first Kink night I attended. Her and I had a outs of sorts due to my inexperience and moreso her intollerance. No we didn't play we just talked and had a different view on things, nothing major and I can't even remember what exactly, but I believe she felt that because of my inexperience, I should not even attend such events as the Kink Night. Which I personally find rediculous as the best way to gain experience and comfort in the Scene is to attend such nights and see and feel it first hand. Well I was polite and would smile and nod, she would do the same, and at times I felt she was following me, I am sure she thought I was following her as well the amount of times we would pass each other in our mingling. All said and done however at the end of the Night before she left I said "Not going to say hello?" in a polite and smiling manner as she passed by, she shrugged, said hello and kept on walking past. I guess politeness is best at a distance. If I didn't find her so attractive and the desire to dominant such a spirited woman I probably wouldn't have given her a second thought. But being me, I love a challenge and she would be most definately a challenge. Not saying I will even try but the thought is attractive. Oh wells I never had much luck with red heads in my life lol.

So I go to leave call a cab.. waiting waiting and just my luck I get to talking to this attractive and friendly woman when my cab shows up and I need to depart. Worst timing.. ever! lol Always next time maybe!! Damn this has gotten long..

Goodnight and Dream kinky things!

Wierd Dreams

Now I usually have some odd dreams and its normal, but at least some of these have some revilance to my life. Last nights dream however did not.. it was completely random of me in some town or city (I believe town) driving around in a truck to a friends little auto dealer and looking at some classic cars and some really odd cars.. and then just driving around more.. there was a woman in it but I am not sure.

Also tonight is kink night! I actually intend to attend tonight since tommorow I don't work hurrah! So time to break out the leather shirt and black dress pants and see whats going on. Its for all people of a different lifestyle. BDSMers, Poly, everything :) So this should be a blast. In the past kink Nights I went to I met this one woman.. about my age and dressed like a 1930's belle. For some reason that look just gets my motor going lol. It was a time when shasta and I were not together and barely speaking. Well I had talked to this very attractive lady and we hit it off very well, she was someone who also was poly but no longer and in a mono relationship. So we swapped stories and really got along. There was a definate mutual attraction with how intense she looked at me, and more then likely I to her. Well her friends came and interrupted and she had to leave with promise to attend the next one and wanted me to come out. Well she missed that one and for a while the kink night here was on hold as no one wished to host it anymore. Its back up and I am attending and if my dream had any revelence I do hope this said lady is there tonight! We will have to see how things go :)

Take care people and happy May Long :D

Work and hot weather make's me not happy...

So work pretty much blew today. Two laborers took an early long weekend so that left me alone basically.. and with how hot it is.. thats not very fun. Hell everyone on our jobsite went home early, a good hour or more early. Us? 15 minutes early basically, Woooo. I wouldn't have minded it so much, if I had not suffered a sun stroke in Fort McMurray the previous summer. Now those that know of Sun stroke, know that after you get it once, you are highly more susceptable to it again. Now I did not have sun stroke, however I was getting damn near, and right before the May long weekend. That would NOT have been very cool. But we did our job and so now I am in my basement which is dark and only mildly warm. Being completely in the Buff is a benefit as well.. only thing now that I need is some pleasant woman to come and pamper me and I'll be in heaven (save this bloody headache).

I do hope everyone has a awesome May long weekend and they get out and do things, or remain in a basement and keep cool :)

Kidnapped!

Yes I was actually kidnapped. However is it still kidnapped if you go willingly? lol So I get a call from one of my bestest gf's, apparently her and my other uberfantastic gf are going out and they are coming by. Get Dressed, bye. A little shocked and a whole like surprised, I went and got dressed (as I was almost ready for bed.. early work and such). So I get another call once I finished getting ready, come to the front. So I do and in the back of the car I go. "Where are we going?" No one knew, it was completely random and they decided to kidnap me and take me wherever. So we end up at Boston Pizza and have a fantastic time talking and laughing. Fun was had by all, especially when I get my Baked Ravioli without any utensils for a good 10 minutes or more.. it was so yummy but I refrained from using my fingers lol.

Just general chat about guys, girls, people we knew, sex, random drunken nights, lots of different things. There was a young couple in the next booth who were rather quiet. I am sure they found our conversation humorous and maybe a little bit informative ;). It was midnight before we headed out. I honestly can say I hope to be kidnapped again in the near future! Now its off to sleep as I need to be up in 6 hours and haven't been getting enough sleep lately. I really can not wait for my birthday. I am sure it will be memorable!

Life Truncated

So moving on then! lol No more no less.. here it stops. The rest, all me baby! New and Improved!

Should just end it.

I should seriously just finish blogging. Its caused nothing but grief. I started this blog as a way of stating my side and just posting how I felt to let it out rather then bottle it up. But when so many people I know read it, it just leads to bs. Sometimes I just need to rant and let it out, to put it out. On a blog its better for me as it actually seems like I am talking, even if its to myself.. just in typed words. People take it all literal, they see everything as I don't hide it and here I am I write everything I am thinking, everything as I see it, never stated I was perfect and it was all as it is. If you had an issue TALK TO ME.. is it so hard to just leave a comment?. Its all just completely fucked. How do you explain the last 2 weeks? when everything thats come back to me seems cut and paste from you? When everything has your influence written ALL over it? When I haven't even done a god damn bloody thing wrong these past two weeks? I've in fact been on best behavior really. No fights, no arguments, no whining, no flirting with anyone I know personally or other. Hell I even went to anyone I might have been offensive to and apologized. Most were surprised and didn't really think I was aweful or anything but accepted anyways. So how can this BS happen when I haven't buttfucked anything?. Hell I haven't even been on a messenger for the most part. I just went into quiet mode and didn't do anything questionable and shit still happens, whats that leave me to believe? Maybe the simple fact I retreated like a wounded animal is simply it. Maybe thats it I don't know. I just wish all this fing bs was over.

In FACT due to all this drama and BS I've kinda become fed up with women in general so I was making a vow to myself, a challenge really. After my 25'th birthday if nothing alters my life I am taking a personal vow of Chastity, no sex, no intimacy, nothing aside from maybe holding hands or hugs. Nothing intimate or personal more then that. Just to clean out the drama from my life and maybe get a fresh start. Also to show I have the willpower, more for myself then anyone else. Some people think that is silly. But whatever. Do your best to make it difficult for me, I accept the challenge. Tired of this two sided BS. You want to approach me then just fucking do it. Lets get it over with. Finish and be done with it or whatever else.

There are always three different sides to each coin. Or have you forgotten that? I'm just fucking fed up with shit. We'll see how life goes.

Fresh Snow.

Yaknow with how completely and utterly bs things have been lately there is one constant.. Weather. Its always there.. take today for example a foot of fresh snow so when it warmed up it got nice and sticky. Now we couldn't work due to the cold and all the melted snow and water so as we all left.. we all (well most) broke out into a snowball fight, right there on the jobsite. Guys in their 50's to early 20's all having fun tossing balls of snow at each other. Not a care in the world save to avoid being hit by a snowball.. it was fun.. something I hadn't done in a long time.. and it was very exhilerating.. its funny how a simple ball of snow can make you feel when everything else is gone to hell.

It's something I needed and glad I could do.. now to await my roomate to return for lunch and lie in ambush.. I'm usually never home at lunch so it should be a surprise mwuahahaha.

On another note I am contemplating moving blogs. It is getting to the point where I cannot freely post what I want to and really, thats not fair to myself. So I'll look into maybe moving or simply starting over fresh with a new name, new attitude, and new everything. We will see. I see a few people read it more then the usual so we shall see.

For those of you that have snow... go have fun.. if ya can.

Typical

Oh look another Victoria.. Joy. Wonder if it'll take 2 years to rid myself..

Completeing the ensamble?

Well I got a few new clothes and like what I see really.. I especially like the black dress pants with the black undershirt and black button up.. now to complete it I'd like to top it off with a black Fedora

http://rinovelty.com/imagedb/products/_Large/HAFEDBL.jpg as seen here lol.

Theres that.. or well I was born country and its really in my blood.. hence why most of the songs I have posted so far are country lol. So not sure as to my "style" I guess.. its up in the air and I guess whatever I look best in I guess is what I will do. But a Fedora might be a really good purchase for me.

Conclusion?

Well I thought about it a great deal and have come to a decision. But FIRST! One of my fav songs! hazzah.. once more country and once more a Brad Paisley song. Hez my powa let me show u!




So I may not be the best of guys but when I look at myself I have to say I have turned out alright. A good deal due to how I raised myself (on books, on good morals.. until recently lol) A very good portion of that was also due to Shasta and V. I'll never forget you both so heres my thanks. Today at work I almost had it out with one of the brickies I work with.. the cracked out messed up living in mom's basement even tho he's 35 prick. I'm doing my job and the lazy prick gets in my face about what to do and how to do it. after 7 years of being a bricklayer he has the skill of a first year apprentice. MAYBE a second and he gets up in my face about my job.. now I am a pretty patient person. Hell being in Poly its kind of a requirement. Well he was aggrivating me all day and generally just being a prick lol. Well I let him have it.. in words of course, but the temptation to slug him was almost overwhelming. Now I am not shy of my past, such as when I was younger, I had a VERY short temper.. it wouldn't take much to set me off and he knew this, and so nicknamed me spaz, which is fine as that was something from my past. Something I have controlled since I haven't gotten into a fight in years.

So in that aspect I turned out alright. I'm still just a guy, I make mistakes and gladly admit them. I'm not faultless, its peoples faults that make them attractive. If everyone was perfect this world would be a helluva boring place. Hope this seems relivant in some sense.. but basically a conclusion about Shasta. It was simple. I was truly attracted to her.. saw a great deal of good things in her and just forgot the rest. After all that wasn't important to me. That was why I fell for her, why I made every attempt to keep her in my life. Not because I am afraid to be alone, although that is a thought of mine of course, hell every single person wonders if they will be single they're whole life, its only natural. Who knows what will happen in the future but I intend to live my life. I am neither sad nor happy to have things end with Shasta. She did what she felt she needed to do and I can't blame her for that.

Who knows what will happen in my life. Shasta might come and talk to me again, she might not. I'm not holding my breathe on that however. The ball is in her court and thats basically how it will be. So in conclusion. Yah I loved her, for the right reasons but life just didn't turn out like that, tho it goes on down the path. So lets go wander down that path a while.

On a Plus note... I am turning 25 soon! YAY another year under my belt. Going to have a backyard fire party with smokies and booze (not too much, done drinking myself under the table for a while lol) good conversation and of course.. a cozy fire..

Angry...

I am confused... how does one honestly go through life at times.. its rediculous.. I am not sure who or what my life holds for me in my future. Nor will I ever know really. Most people go through life denying things, claiming others. Everyone does it, they just at times don't realize it.

Well Shasta's recent post made me.. well.. arroused lol. She had a control over me it was intoxicating. Its not every day a woman can get that sort of arrousal from me. True I can get horny and what not but with her its different. I remember at a new years party all she had to do was nibble and kiss the back of my neck. Not even a seconds worth of contact and it was enough to subdue me really lol It was rediculously easy :P I may always desire her who knows. Now I don't know if being without her is a good thing or bad quite yet. so far its seeming good but not so good yaknow?

Like with my ex fiancee.. when she left I was angry it lasted a while and then I was fine, I accepted the loss and moved on, I was happy again and the relationship with her wasn't of concern anymore. I had asked myself if she came back would I take her back? I can honestly say I don't know. Even tho she put me through hell there was a chance I would take her back. Is it the fact that I fear being alone? Maybe. I have contemplated what if I was single for the rest of my life. Could I do it? Or would I just be depressed? Or will I find someone? Who knows.

Now on to Shasta, what if she came and talked and things got better would I take her back would I want to even try and get back with her? I might, in all realism it is not something I can say one way or another. Maybe it is the fact I look and focus on only the good things? My other friends who know and have met her vehemently tell me to avoid her and all that jazz. They may be right for all I know. I just haven't decided. I just have to think. Would this desire and want for her be because I love her? Or the fact I don't want to be alone and I've connected with her the most then any other female so far? That is something I have to decide. I do however accept my responsibilty in what I have said that lead to this, I am not passing the buck, I hate how I am seen one way, which is my fault as online I am far from shy and overly flirty. I need to learn to focus on other things even if its led on. Might save me a lot of trouble. We'll we shall see what life has in store for me, and hopefully figure out what is going on with myself in the meantime.

Sorry man, I didn't mean to puke on your cat..

No I didn't really do that.. to my knowledge.. but maybe some after.. events.. and the fact she somehow snuck into my room and was there with the "residue" for the rest of the night.. SO yah.. I may drink again but not that much at allllll. It has been a long time since I have been that drunk.. and it wouldn't have happened had I not been so bored all night.

As some of you are probably cheering about, my event was a flop. People would just rather stay home and have sex it seems. Or whatever else. My roomate and his fiancee came out but she was super tired and they left within the first half hour to an hour and that was it. I did however randomly meet a guy I used to work with so that was cool. Plus the manager kept giving me free drinks which I never turn down so.. yah. Well my work buddy was going by my place so he offered me a ride. Hellz ya man, save me a 20 dollar cab fare. But we didn't go home, in fact we chatted a bit about work when we were younger, bitch waitresses where I used to work before arriving at my old bar hangout :) YAY! So drunk.. yada yada but not really we got in and got to see all the staff dressed up in cowboy hats and redneck shit. It was awesome, My old boss pulled me a long to the bar and gave me a drink for free and sent me out to have fun. Well I did get to see a few other friends and hung out with them, danced once with a woman before she found someone a lot less drunk then I lol. I was feeling the alcohol coming onto me and the hot sweaty atmosphere wasn't helping so I said goodnight to who I could before walking home, which is right across the street from my bar. The cold air felt gooooooooooooood, I should have just stayed outside for a while, but I prolly woulda got hypothermia with how I was dressed and how chilly it was. So in a I went, stripped the clothes and flopped into bed for a while.. I started feeling a little sick at that point but usually I just sleep it off, but to be on the safe side I decided to head to the bathroom.. big mistake.. or was it waiting too long? well I got 3/4's of the way up and yah..

Oh wellz.. good for another few years methinks..

Glad you had a fantastic night Shasta.

Pumped to bump!

Time for a party!!! I am so nervous going out tonight.. I don't know why.. this isn't my first time out so I don't know what makes me nervous.. maybe the fact a particular woman is coming out who I find attractive.. that is reason I guess but not sure.. well we will see how tonight goes, either way I know I will have a blast. Good people are coming out and the place is comfortable. I don't know who is playing tho. Hopefully it's a really good band!

Anyways just wanted to put in an update for now before I head out. Later amigo's! Hope all is well where you are and your enjoying your weekend to the fullest!

Just another update

So didn't end up going to the Realm of Fantasy as my plan were canceled on me due to illness so oh well, always next time.

Seems to be how things go where people go back on what they say lol You look back and wonder how things would be without you, its rare you can see what happens after you are gone. I sometimes wonder if I had done things different how my life would be. Its interesting to think about so long as you don't go "well this would have been better". The little decisions and the big that shape our lives.

I Swear there was a plank there..

So I am tired.. nothing new today, save my work injury. I took a step back and fell between two sets of scafold. On the Plus side I fell backwards enough to land on the planking of the one scaffold so I did not fall far, however my left leg aches still since it hit the side of the planking.. so thats swollen. But early to bed tonight as I am severly tired.. more then usual. Its almost as if I am getting ill but we shall see. Hell I have been eating far better these last few weeks so who knows..

I just hope that I am awake enough for this weekend. Its jam packed with excitement. Realm of Fantasy on friday night to learn and explore of my dominant side. Saturday is going to be a party night.. and one helluva one at that! :) Night for now.. I am curious who even reads this if you could comment with a name or something I wouldn't mind seeing who all reads this. If no one. then that is fine as well.