Rat a tat tat!

Well I was thinking of what to do with my blog as maybe a daily or semi regular thing.. So I decided I would do game reviews since they are a big interest of mine! :D So I thought.. which game to start..why not one of the first online games I ever really played?

Wolfenstien Enemy Territory: http://www.enemyterritory.com/main.html
(It doesn't have its own webpage anymore as its just that old lol you have to goto downloads then click Wolfenstien: Enemy Territory)

Produced: Splash Damage along with ID Software and Activision originally concieved of Enemy Territory as an expansion to Return To Castle Wolfenstien (Game of the year 2001) but instead released it as a free standalone Multiplayer shooter in 2003.

Storyline: There is no real storyline, you can be axis or allies. You start at spawn points, and fight each other using each class to achieve your objective. Which can either be preventing the Axis from firing a giant railgun, to the Allies blowing up a Axis fuel dump.

Mechanics: Controls are rather good and customizable if you know some scripting, typically you can find help online for that or certain people can tell you how if their nice enough lol. Quite a few pre-implimented voice commands, comments, and statements. The use of fireteams allows for alot more orientated squad tactics and maneuvers.

Graphics and Sound: Pretty good compared to what you would have expected to find 3 years ago. The sound is really good, you can tell with a little bit ofexperience each signature sound of a gun, so that you can guess if its friend or foe just around the side of the corner. Also the enviroment effects can throw in a curve here and their. If your not used to it you could be creeping around a corner, have a dog bark in the backround, scare the crap out of you and make you shoot the wall beside the Axis, or ally you were aiming at. Resulting in him turning and shooting you.

Overview: All in all its a very well rounded game. You get to play with the bug guns or the little ones, you can call in artillery strikes, build bridges, steal enemy uniforms and infiltrate their ranks, or be a medic and keep your friends fit till the end. With each map however it is built that you will need players of each profession to progress through the map and achieve your objectives.

Overall Ranking: On a scale of 1 - 10 K's. I give it a 7 K :P

D-day has come and gone

So I am blogging here today because I feel like it basically. D-day has come and the outcome is.. well not a surprise. Shit hit the fan and my "completely open communication where everything is shares so there is no misinterpretation or assumption" has failed to say the least.

I have issues, as do we all, mine just has to do more with being around people. It can take alot or a little for me to open myself up around people. To not care or worry or concern myself with what I might say or do that would be "frowned" upon. So I over analyze, question, review what others would say or do based on my experience or thoughts of what they would do. Others are my constant changing to conform to others need, being dynamic and flexible depending on those I am with is something I prided myself on. Good in theory but not the best for most applications as this makes you more prone to frequent mood changes and sudden shifts in thought patterns and the likes. As I was told I should do, draw my line in the sand. The point which there is no crossing, doormat I was.. and well.. even without being told I have lately these last few days come to become stalwart in not being a doormat.

Many of you will be like.. WTF! or I saw that coming a mile away or whatever. But yes, I am single once again. I pity all you single or otherwise attached women out there now! haha.. hardly. Anyways aside from my fake attempt at humor of the situation. Shit comes in three's and this is the third. I've recently had another relationship sort of start, now end, and my relationship romantically with SG has ended as well. For the best she says, as we are both unhappy. Its ironic however that I don't find myself unhappy. I am proud of who I am becoming, I know I have issues, that I need to deal with. I sometimes choose the wrong times to do just that however. I need to improve partializing and tolerance, putting things aside for later basically. I need to be more focused on me.. but not so focused on me. Its a tight rope that I have yet to fully master. Question I ask myself. Is cutting this off with SG (her choice not mine) the best thing. Yes and no, honestly I thought alot about if it would be best to end it with SG. Draw my line in the sand so to speak, or delay the "inevitable" who knows really. There is a fork in the road and SG made her choice, so now I must go my own way. I take what I have learned and applied it to myself. Am I sad? I don't know. Not right now but I am sure it will hit me hard soon enough. I honestly don't know if being friends is possible.

Everyone wants the true me, the unanalytical, the unconcerned of other peoples thoughts and expectations kind of person. Pure unadulterated, uncensored K. Kind of like on this blog lol. I say what I want, when I want.. bout it (baring in mind that it might be hurtful then I should mind my tongue). Honestly I don't know how well people will handle it. SG and V seem to handle a good portion of it rather well so who knows. So basically the night went with V disecting what is wrong with what I do, how I do it, my expectations, how I am around people and so forth with the odd input from SG. It was quite the night, am sure the other patrons at the pub were like. "ooookay.. gunna walk.. in this opposite direction" a bit I am sure. Ah well. So now I am left wondering that if I do improve and stop worrying so much and stand up for myself and so forth. Will I get back with SG? Will she want me back? Most importantly.. Would "I" want her back if the opportunity arose. Honestly I can't say right now. There is much I need to think and determine, we'll just see how things go I guess. I for one thing.. will either way make sure I am heard, and heard VERY clearly.

So when we were about finished for the night I was thinking and came up with something.. a little short statment that I think I'll use whenever I get over analystical or anything like that. Bear in mind I am flying by the seat of my pants as I type this so here goes.

I may not be the smartest, or always say the right thing. But thats me, I'm human. I know what I can control and what I can't. I can be who I want, and if you don't like it? Well suck it up princess cause I am me so f***ing deal with it. Life's too short to spend with prissy people.

So yes.. the single, pure, unadulterated, non-pessimistic, fly by the seat of my pants, mach 10, fraking out crazy wierd, unrestricted and uncensored K is well.. He's loose lol. As for this blog. I think I'll keep it up for a while.. I started it to freely comment on things and people involved in SG's blog but its evolved into my space where I state just about anything. So.. I guess I'll be seeing you all sometime maybe.

This is K singing out.

News news news

Ok so bear in mind I have been drinking.. but yah... an update to date..

SG and I are AWESOME things are so good I dunno what else tp say.. my work has even improved, but that means something has to go wrong.. right? Right.. so I get told tonight P has no interest in rekindling things with me. Great.. so I start to occupy myself with a few drinks to just get me into the right mood..yah was good at the start but its only as good as the others allow right? I honesty tried just being a friend and goofing off and just having fun, not over analyzing things at all. Well didn't matter what I did or how minor or major. I got glares, pissed off looks and just general wierdness from P. It got to the point we both left the party in separate directions, I to cool off, I assume her to cry. Her best friend. M, went with her so they came back later. I was frankly just done with everything so I went inside and chatted with M who thought I really needed to go get some sleep. See M feels lesser then P and P feels the lesser of M.. its messed kinda.. so being me I bragged her up so that she knows at least one person things she's really great and such. P didn't like that. She came in and "warned" me not to do something spiteful. Needless to say I unloaded like a drunken sailor on a fresh voyage, had a friend holding my arm telling me to relax and don't worry about she was saying, but I wouldn't have it. The shere gall of her thinking that my attempts to make someone feel good about themselves as a spiteful act to her? I unloaded everything. She left, went and cried whatever. Am I an asshole? prolly. Do I care? not really. Shit hit the fan but at least the bad smell is gone. Am I sad at this turn of events? Not sure yet, little hurt but I knew it was coming so that was good. Now I'm just going to push onwards.

P.s Unloading did NOT involve me swearing, name calling or anything negetive. I just told her "exactly" how I felt and why I was doing it and why her assuming I was being spiteful was very wrong pov.